Friday, December 28, 2007

The education system forces unlikely bedfellows to be piled tightly into a confined space in which the subjects are then forced to construct relationships with one another. In some cases the ties are harmonious, almost serendipitous and the subject florish. But in most cases it's just a way of conditioning individuals to follow a line of conduct that allows them to integrate congruously into "normal society".

Now, the only thing I have left in common with most of you is that we share the same institute name on our diploma. I don't care what you've been up to. There's a reason I don't keep in contact with you. I don't want to reminice on times that I'm still trying to forget. I'm sure you feel the same way. I can see the look on your eyes when you ask questions that you yourself don't even care to know what the answer is. This is most certianly anti-social behaviour but I don't see myself as acting out because before I put myself in that situation I was just dandy. You're only kidding yourself if you've never had this thought go through your head. The thing is, no one wants to say it out loud. Don't worry, this one's on me.

I know what I'm getting myself into when I attend these functions and for that I'm a fucking idiot. I didn't really think that this time would be different. You all have better friends you could be spending your time with still we succumb to yet another cock comparison fest.

It probably would have been better if I came into the situation with a better attitude. But then again that's what I'm conditioned to do. To give into that notion is to really would be to perpetuate the lie all over again.

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